Encouragement In A -20 Degree Environment

How could you be anything but cold in -20 degrees?  It’s insane to think that I work in a place that is colder than most in the middle of a winter anywhere on earth.  Even in the middle of July.  It was 95 degrees or higher throughout most of that month, but I had the best air conditioning of anyone I knew.  Then August hit.  When I say it hit, I mean it hit me.  I’d been doing quite well for several months when I found myself no longer motivated by my surroundings.  I had been reveling in the fact that I was actually feeling good for a change.  There I was, in a low stress job, enjoying the blessings of a job that allowed me to leave it where it lay and truly embrace those things that I worked for. I was able to spend more time with my wife, at our lovely home we bought two years before and with the yellow lab whose name I’m afraid to mention here due to possible copyright/trademark infringement. For the sake of this post we’ll use what we call her legal name, Professor Marles Q. Barkley. She’s a very lovable, and as labs are known for, loyal shadow…er companion.

Anyway, I found myself going to a dark place again, this time felt worse than before. Before it was like I was in a fog of non-feeling. At that time we found out that I suffer from depression and general anxiety disorder. Panic attacks were my worst nightmare and trust me, if you’ve ever experienced one, everything that feels remotely similar to that after the first, you almost panic for the thought of another. This time around was different.  I wasn’t really expecting it, since I had been feeling good for several months, but the melancholy was setting in and by early September I was in another deep hole of depression. With that denial came some very uncomfortable thoughts and feelings. I couldn’t control them and thusly could not concentrate on anything but those thoughts and feelings.  It led me to a very necessary leave of absence from that arctic exposure. It’s been a rough 2011 emotionally. Sometimes you have to experience a low to experience new heights.

During my leave of absence I gained some new perspective, experienced a revival of sorts and found myself in the world-wide web blogosphere.  I decided to blog about a journey that I have yet to find out where it leads.  I am exploring possibilities formerly left to dreams and regrets.  At first I was blogging almost daily and immersing myself in as much voiceover stuff as I could possibly find.  Inevitably being a newbie to the voiceover industry meant my leave of absence would not be permanent and that I would have to return to that -20 degree environment.  We got bills you know.

So far, it feels different.  I have a renewed sense of direction. I feel better able to manage my depression and anxiety.  Let me be clear, the largest reason is not the therapy, the medicine or even the following of this dream. I am where I am today because of the love and belief of the woman who is my wife.  She has carried our family through this difficult year and for that I am most appreciative. Because of her support I am able to get up at 3:30 a.m. and trudge off to work for a 10-12 hour day of picking boxes of frozen food (ice cream, baked goods, tv dinners, turkeys, etc.) It’s because of her deep abiding love for me that I am able to feel good at work and look forward to coming home to her.  It’s because of her belief in me that I can lift yet another 60 lb. box of turkey onto my pallets and be excited about spending time in my studio and working on the next audio VocalMusing, the next church announcements for the coming Sunday, my next blog entry and practice towards becoming a mainstay in the voiceover industry.

I found encouragement in a -20 degree environment. It’s cold at work, but it’s so very warm at home. Thank you my love.

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Two In One Day!

I know you can barely contain yourself seeing a second post in one day, but we can do this together.  Ok, I’m not really containing myself.  I’m writing this bad boy.

In my post Dreams Happen Overnight, They Come True Over Time I mentioned that I was contacted by a radio station in Seattle to do voiceover work for a commercial.  I’m happy to report that I did two commercials and they began airing last Monday, October 31st.  Happy Halloween indeed!  I was asked to do these for free and because it was a great opportunity to do a real project and put something in my portfolio of that nature, I agreed.  Since I shared the first audio post of my blog earlier, I wanted to share the two commercials.  I’m pretty psyched about it and I wanted to publicly thank Vicki St. Clair and “Conversations Live with Vicki St. Clair, KKNW” for the opportunity.  You can hear both commercials in their entirety in the box.net widget to the right.

Thanks for stopping by and I look forward to sharing the next step in my journey.

It’s Here!

I’m so excited!  I have released my first audio VocalMusing, beginning with my first post. . . .My Very First Ever… you can listen to it by clicking on the file in the box.net widget to the right.  I feel like putting my blog into an audio format gives me a way to practice using my voice in a more casual and conversational manner.  After all, these words are my own so I should be very comfortable in speaking them.  It also allows me to practice my production skills as I mix the music and vocal tracks.  It’s not incredibly complex, but it’s practice non-the-less.

It’s been a few days since my last blog post and I haven’t been writing them with as much frequency as I was at the start, but I’m happy to be sharing this latest development in my journey.  I hope to be posting more and at some point have my audio posts match the written post in terms of release.  For now, I’m going to enjoy the process and look forward to seeing how this morphs as I go along.  I hope you like and I can’t wait to produce the next audio VocalMusing.

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It’s Coming!

I’m super excited to be unveiling the audio version of my blog.  I am currently in the production phase.  I don’t think I want it to be straight voice and I’d like it to take on a podcast feel.  The meat of each audio post will be what you can read right here, but I am thinking about how I’ll begin and end each post.  Plus I definitely want some bed music.  It just helps set the mood or enhance it.  You know, because what I write is so dramatic, sometimes romantic and . . . who am I kidding.  I just like a little music when I’m listening to someone talk.  I get more engaged that way.  But I’m looking forward to unleashing my blog upon the ears of the world.

Not only that, but I am currently working with a good friend of mine on a logo for my production arm’s namesake, Eagle 31 Productions.  I saw the first draft on Monday and I’m eagerly awaiting the second draft and then hopefully some color.  Once we’ve finalized it, I can’t wait to show it off.  It’s going to be awesome!

So that’s it for today.  I hope your week is going well and I look forward to writing to you again, and speaking to you soon!

Hi, Ho! Hi, Ho!

It’s off to work I go!

Well, I’ve been on a leave of absence from my full-time job and tomorrow I go back to it.  It’s busy season and I’ll be working somewhere between 10-12 hours a day, sometimes more, five days a week.  I’m not saying this to get any sympathy although the next part might get me some.  I work in a negative 20 degree freezer all day riding a pallet jack and selecting boxes of frozen food for delivery to grocery stores.  I will typically spend anywhere from 60-90 minutes in the freezer.  After each order is complete I bring them out to the dock where the orders are loaded onto trucks by someone else.  The loading dock is a balmy 3o degrees above zero.  Trust me when I say, that feels warm.  Is there any sympathy out there for me yet? I don’t really expect any.  We all have to work to make a living and do the things we want in life.  But what happens when what we want to do is hindered by the things we have to do?

As I step into the unknown, rather from the unknown into the known that is the voiceover industry, I face somewhat of an uphill battle over the next couple of months.  You see, I won’t have the luxury of hours upon hours at my disposal to spend in my studio, soaking up all the information I can get my hands on; practicing behind the microphone; or finding new ways to network and learn about this industry I want so bad to be a part of.  I’ll have to fit in my time in the studio with working.  Other things that work will get in the way of is spending time with my family, having fun and going to church.  I love that place, I really do.  So, it’s going to take some juggling to afford myself the time that I need to really work on my craft, to spend quality time with my wife and to get my daily bread.

Unfortunately, that also means less time to write these amazing blog posts that keep people on the edge of their seats and make people want to reach for the Kleenex when they’re reading it.  Ok, maybe not, but I have enjoyed getting this blog up and running.  I’ve got a couple of things in the hopper that I hope to roll out with VocalMusings within the next week.  I am excited about it and I hope that you will enjoy what’s coming.

How do you manage your work with your passion?  Is your passion your work?  Someday I hope it will be mine, because I don’t feel like I’m working when I’m behind the microphone or doing some audio editing.  I’d be interested to hear your thoughts.  That’s all for now.

As those famous seven dwarves mused, Hi, Ho! Hi, Ho! it’s off to work I go!

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